Students at a lecture by the author do "the Motorcycle."
I knew something was wrong when the retreat guide pulled out a baseball bat.
A young man—let's call him Tony—had just shared a bad memory with our small group of men as we stood inside a ranch cabin in northern Arizona. When he was a kid, Tony explained, he tried to get his dad's attention while he read the newspaper. Dad pushed him away.
When Tony finished the story, the guide explained that all these years Tony had been carrying around the emotional baggage his dad heaped on him that day. The newspaper was more important than his son, and this was part of the "father wound"—pain stemming from an uncaring, distant father—that made Tony gay.
The guide said it was time to get rid of the father wound. He had Tony kneel down in front of another man pretending to read a newspaper. After a punching bag was slipped between them, Tony was given the bat and told to pretend tobeat his father to death.
This happened on day two of Journey into Manhood, a 48-hour retreat designed to help several dozen men overcome unwanted "same-sex attraction." I was there undercover, a straight man investigating so-called ex-gay therapies. By that afternoon in 2009, I had already spent a year looking into ex-gay ministries.
Ex-gay programs, the vast majority connected to conservative Christian denominations, subscribe to a developmental model of homosexuality: emotional wounds from childhood cause men and women to become gender-confused, which leads them to cannibalize their God-given gender identity by having same-gender sex.
Sound bogus? It should. The theories driving ex-gay programs have been rejected by just about every major professional mental health organization. But that hasn't prevented pastors, preachers, parents, "life coaches" and even licensed mental health professionals from pushing ex-gay therapies, also known as "reparative" therapy or sexual-orientation change efforts (SOCE), on confused or misled youth and adults.
"Closeted, highly religious LGBT clients are often plagued by deep shame and fear. When they reach out for help, they usually turn to someone within their religious community, such as a pastoral counselor or therapist," says Lisa Maurel, a licensed marriage and family therapist who opposes therapy designed to change someone's sexual orientation. "Too often, because this professional adheres to the myths of SOCE, they reinforce stereotypes and shame-binding messages about sexuality to a client who is already vulnerable and afraid."
Ex-gay programs started in the 1970s. They formed as a Christ-centered response to the growing gay rights movement. In 1973, the same year that the American Psychological Association removed homosexuality from the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, Love in Action, the first ex-gay ministry, formed in San Rafael.
Today, several major ex-gay umbrella groups exist, but they have trouble agreeing on their techniques. For example, as part of the weekend retreat I attended, guides had us practice "healing touch" therapy. I sat on the floor between the outstretched legs of one man and leaned back against his chest while other men placed their hands on my arms and legs. (This position was called "the Motorcycle.") But in a policy statement, the largest ex-gay umbrella group, Exodus International, opposes "the therapeutic practice commonly referred to as 'holding/touch therapy' as a healing exercise for those with same-sex-attraction distress." Perhaps they find it counterproductive to their goals.
On May 30, the California Senate approved SB 1172, a bill that would ban psychotherapists from practicing SOCE on minors and require mental-health professionals to provide adults seeking SOCE a disclosure on the risk of harm, and to obtain that client's informed consent. The bill goes to the Assembly next.
"Under the guise of a California license, some therapists are taking advantage of vulnerable people by pushing dangerous sexual-orientation-change efforts," says bill author State Sen. Ted Lieu, D-Torrance. "These bogus efforts have led in some cases to patients later committing suicide, as well as severe mental and physical anguish. This is junk science, and it must stop."
"For decades, gay, lesbian, bisexual and transgender people—particularly youth—have suffered psychological abuse by those who are entrusted to care for their emotional and psychological well-being," says Clarissa Filgioun, Equality California board president, which sponsored SB 1172. "It's long past time to do everything in our power to put an end to the use of therapy tactics that have no sound scientific basis and that cause lifelong damage."